Thursday - 13/7/06

Today wasnt too bad. I was still hurting but at least it wasnt as bad as Monday and Tuesday.

I had oral today. Chinese Os.. I did really badly, although the passage was easy.

Ermz..I was thinking la..About what Belle told me last night. She said many things..But the thing that struck me the most..was when she said this.."I know you're feeling bad, but I'm suffering too. You're not alone in this; we're here for you".

I know she didnt mean to make me feel bad by telling me she wasnt feeling good either. But what amazed me..was that even though she was going through the same thing as I am, she was ready for me to go to her when I needed someone.

It made me feel awfully guilty . . . I guess Bryan's right..I only thought of myself. I didnt think about anyone else..How can I be so self-centered?

I was thinking about it the whole of today..And the best thing I can do now..Is to apologize to her on Saturday.

I realised that I have the best possible friends here for me.

Jesus was in her. I could see Him. So is He in Mike and Lamb. They're the best friends a girl like me could ever have. Seriously. I'm not singing their praises to fill up this entry. I feel so indebted to them. They're God's gift to me; one of the most precious yet.

I may not understand God's way now..But I'm sure that with the help of Him n my cell group..Everything will turn out just fine.

I hope..I hope he will also turn to God.


Jesus I will live for You. In everything I do. I'm holding onto You. Always! Always and forever.. And when my world is falling down, in You I will be found. I'm staying in Your arms today! Always! Always and forever..